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Leaving 2011 up to Free Will Astrology, and some goal-setting

January 10, 2011

This was my horoscope for the week of Dec. 30, 2010 from Free Will Astrology:

Decades ago, the U.S. built a network of sleek expressways to make it fast and easy for cars to travel between cities. But like many of America’s impressive engineering feats, this one took little account of what the human soul might enjoy. Ugly buildings or empty spaces surround many of those roads. Visually, the difference between I-95 in Georgia and I-74 in Illinois is negligible. “The Interstate highway system has made it possible,” said Charles Kuralt, “to go from sea to shining sea without seeing anything.” You cannot afford to let this be your operative metaphor in 2011, Cancerian. Your potential for rapid, extensive progress is sizable, but it would be a mistake to barrel along with your eyes fixed on the prize in the distance as you neglect what’s happening along the way. Be both global and local; romance the details as you revel in the big picture.

This actually does speak to me because I’m working on a few major endeavors that have the chance of making me so goal-oriented that I get blinded by the prize and miss the journey and exit ramps that lead to important and exciting adventures – namely my quest for a master’s degree and career in community development, and my quest for a husband (yes, I said it).

So I shall resolve to keep an open mind and explore my options.  I will revel in my journey and the big picture of what all this means – that I’m living my life in the here and now.

And what may come in 2011?  I’ll set some goals, of course, but let’s first take a look at 2010 goals to see how that generally pans out:

  • Move back to MN – CHECK!
  • Start grad school – CHECK!
  • Take an epic trip to either Sweden & Norway for a mother-land roots journey, or India to involve a service project of some sort – NOPE!  SAVE FOR A FUTURE DAY
  • More yoga! – CHECK! (although not enough)
  • More Minneapple in the Big Apple and MN Culture Club; then something else related when I move to MN – CHECK on NYC, but still not figured out in MN
  • Foster my senses of home, community and friendship – this is sort of “out there” but I mean it! – CHECK, I think…
  • Music in some way, including ukulele and singing – inspiration needed here – CHECK, at least with Grace and our uke jams but I need more music in my life in MN

Goals for this year:

  • Explore and build my life in MN
  • Travel to NYC, Seattle and Spain, at the least
  • Get a paid summer internship in the field of Community & Economic Development
  • Get involved in the community in some or multiple ways
  • Make time for things not school-related, including friends, dating, yoga, crafting, music, cooking
  • Do well in school
  • Maintain my friendships with the folks who live far away
  • Foster new and long-standing relationships here in MN

That’s the generic list for now.  I like the reminder of that horoscope for the first week of 2011 – keeping an open mind and heart even though my path could be straight and narrow.

Happy New Year 2011

January 4, 2011

2010 was fairly monumental, given that I quit my job, moved away from NYC, started grad school, and relocated to my home-town after 10 years away.  I had an inkling and made strong efforts to move back here for over a year of my life in NYC, and it came together slowly but surely.  The job search failed, and so I applied to grad school.  But I didn’t get any aid, so I thought my plan was ruined.

But the ever-spiritual Hopi, my work-wife, was instrumental in pushing me to just take the plunge before I knew I would have a graduate assistantship with tuition benefits, making this all possible.  She supported me to take the risk even though it seemed financially imprudent.  And a familiar voice was her tool of persuasion – Free Will Astrology.  I can’t even guess as to what week this was from, but it summed it up:

First the negatives: Don’t be a martyr to what you’ve won.  Don’t let your success oppress you.  Don’t become a slave to the useful role you’ve earned.  Now let’s try a more positive way to frame the challenges ahead of you: Keep questioning whether the fruits of your victories are still enjoyable and fulfilling to you.  Make sure the triumphs of the past don’t get in the way of the potential triumphs over the future.  Find out how your success may need to evolve.  Push beyond what’s good and head in the direction of what’s great.

And that, my friends, is how I make major life decisions!  I just leave it to Rob Brezsny and Hopi.  And here I am, hoping that I’m heading in the direction of what’s great.

Of course, who can forget all I left behind by leaving my exciting and fulfilling life in NYC.  This video somehow captures my nostalgia about NYC for me during this period of reflecting on the past year and looking to the future:

*Side note about the video: It is made up of 35,000 tilt shift photos.  I came across it on weburbanist.com while looking at a post about models of cities, including the wonderful Queens Museum model of NYC.

Catching up

February 6, 2010

Friends, it’s been a busy coupla weeks.  My Micro-Economics course started in full force and so far, I’ve been very organized and diligent about keeping up with it.  The online course is an interesting format that I’m enjoying so far.

Then, there was the Minneapple happy hour last night, as well as 2 events I attended this past week that I wrote about on the blog.  Fun times, but late nights.

Here’s what’s happening with me astrologically-speaking:

The possibilities for transforming difficult parts of your life are substantial. I’ll name a few ways this could play out: 1. A confusing riddle may be partially solved through a semi-divine intervention. 2. A sore spot could be soothed thanks to the power of your curiosity. 3. An ignorance that has caused you pain may be illuminated, allowing you to suffer less. 4. If you can summon the capacity to generously tolerate uncertainty, you may find and rehabilitate an orphaned part of your life.

Riddles, sore spots, ignorances, and uncertainties.  These are all things I currently struggle with in various ways, particularly in the winter when the winter blah’s set in.  Let’s hope for some transformations in these areas!  Not sure if I’ve experienced this just yet, but we’ll see as the week progresses and hindsight can aid in the analysis.

Last week, I was supposed to acknowledge my happy childhood and let my fond memories help me in dealing with life’s troubles today.  I did have a happy childhood (thanks, mom and fam!), and I could use a reminder to experience nostalgia as a healing power.  I used to be extremely nostalgic for the past, but as I’ve gotten older, I’ve turned my pre-occupations to worrying about the future and trying to figure out what I should do.  I’ve been working on living in the moment more often, and I think I should draw on the past more often, too.

I suppose it has to do with my weird life in NYC.  Everything I own here was basically acquired since I lived here.  It’s almost like I hit a reset button when I moved here, because it was supposed to be temporary (3 years doesn’t count as temporary, huh?).  It’s disorienting to not have pictures and old belongings and people from the past surrounding me.  Thankfully, I have some old friends living here, and visiting at times.  They will help ground me and remind me of what’s made me happy in the past.  Maybe those past happinesses can guide me now.

Free will for Jan. 7th

January 8, 2010

I can get into this:

Gravitate toward genius. Surround yourself with deep thinkers and innovative dreamers. Hang out in the vicinity of brainstorms.

Seeking winter blah’s inspiration!  Brainstormers, I’m coming to find you!

Another preview of 2010 in my Free Will for Dec. 17th

December 22, 2009

Free Will Astrology is preparing me for 2010 with my last few horoscopes.  This week, I’ve been told to get out more in 2010, but not like going out every night of the week.  More like “marvelous sanctuaries on the other side of paradise.” and “places in the urban wilderness where you’ll encounter human types previously unknown to you.”   I’m to think about the most “kaleidoscopic trip” I’ve ever taken, and “consider the possibility of surpassing it in the next 12 months.”  Gotta love the metaphors of trips, journeys and explorations that I’ve been encouraged to ponder.

In my logic- and linear-mind, my most kaleidoscopic trips include my travels to Thailand and my move to NYC.  Both changed me in ways I couldn’t have expected and expanded my worldview.  In a metaphorical sense, I suppose college is a time I really took a mental trip to expand beyond previous understandings of things.  A human zoo I’ve experienced was being in my old band the Stuck Ups, which led to new friends, connections and musical discoveries and adventures.

And here I go, trying to move back to my hometown and make it my own as a grown-up.  I’m embarking on my grad school journey.  And my Minneapple blog has expanded my little “scene” and given me an “in” to meet lots of fascinating people doing inspiring things with their talents.  I’m sure there are other “trips” awaiting me in 2010, and I hope to be open to all the possibilities!

Free will for Dec. 2nd and Dec. 9th

December 10, 2009

Wow, am I tired.  I’ve had a lot of projects and social activities lately.

– The Minneapple Happy Hour Bake-off was last Friday.  That was a great time!  But I still have to finish getting the winner her prizes, and I have yet to blog about it.  Sheesh, slacker!

– The GRE was last Thursday, and I did okay!  I’m so relieved it’s over, and I did well enough to use the scores for my grad school application.  My verbal was a little below the average for Humphrey applicants, but my math was a little higher.  All in all, I’m satisfied and I think I succeeded in meeting the requirement sufficiently.

– Grad school application crunch time is NOW!

– My wonderful friend Natalia was in town for an impromptu trip and I had a blast hanging out with her!  Didn’t get much else done the last few days, though…

Anyway, I was quite nervous about the GRE and the bake-off last week, because my Free Will Astrology for last week said something like “you’re good at crashing, burning, then recovering and coming out on top.”  I thought I might crash and burn at my big events of last week, but I guess not.

This week, I’m supposed to rise from the dead, finish mourning for broken dreams, and prepare myself for the beginning of the age of exploration in January.  I can handle that!  2010 certainly holds exciting new paths and opportunities.  I’m preparing myself!

Free will for wk of Nov. 26

November 30, 2009

OK, for this week’s free will astrology post, I’m going to just copy and paste the whole thing, rather than paraphrase.  It just makes more sense with how it’s written.  Here it is:

Needing a creative disruption in my routine, I hiked into a forest I’d never visited. The late afternoon light was wan and the wind was chilly. In places, the trail narrowed to a scruffy rut barely big enough for me to walk on, leading me to wonder if I was reading my map wrong. Three times this happened, but always the wider path resumed. Were there bobcats here? When I spied a flash of fur in the distance, I wished I’d researched that subject before I’d come. Still I pressed on. Then I came upon a single segment of a wooden fence, inexplicable in this remote area. One end of its upper slat had come loose and fallen. Moved by a whimsical urge to insert order into the midst of my disorientation, I fixed the slat. My mood brightened, my anxiety dissipated, and the rest of my hike was filled with small epiphanies. Everything I just described, my fellow Cancerian, is an apt metaphor for your week ahead.

OK, so I’m wondering if I’m on the wrong path (3 times, no less), wishing that I researched my journey more thoroughly, and moved by a whimsical urge to insert order into my disorientation.

Well, it is certain that I wished my mood would brighten and my anxiety would dissipate.   And I could use some epiphanies.

The seemingly wrong path thing definitely happened today.  I had a first date with a guy who I met on the dating website.  I suppose I developed a bit of an image of the guy based on several messages back and forth over the course of a few weeks.  I was so nervous on my way to the coffeeshop wondering if I’d manage to impress my date and hoping it would meet my expectations.  And then we met and I stopped being nervous.  I immediately realized I had the upper hand in this date, because I wasn’t as impressed by him as I expected to be.  Cuss expectations!  He’s an interesting enough guy – passionate about his interests (including many shared interests like music and travel), smart, knowledgeable, nice.  But the chemistry could’ve been better.  It’s got me wondering about the seemingly wrong path – do I give him another chance because he only seems to have not been a good match?  Or was it the fact that I built him up, and now the path is looking right again because I know now that he isn’t a good match for me?  First dates blow.  There’s never a clear answer (well, it’s usually clear if the answer is a definite NO, but otherwise, it’s fuzzy).

Oddly enough, I have 2 friends who know guys they want to set me up with.  This hasn’t happened to me in forever, so it’ll be interesting to find out more, and see if this is part of my path analogy, too.

Another path winder could be that I applied for a job in Mpls last week that’s a really great fit.  But here I am, gung-ho on applying to grad school.  I guess it’s normal to have a job search and move to another city be an unknown, but it sure gets old to have my future seem so out of my hands at times.

I have to say, my feelings of disorientation have been alleviated by my GRE studying, but that’s not really all that whimsical.  But it sure is nice to have a defined goal, and a book to help me prepare and give me structure.

Ah, structure.  Such a helpful tool with my self-motivation.  I could’ve used some more structure this weekend as I had a few goals to tackle that didn’t get tackled – painting my room, starting my x-mas shopping, promoting the bake-off, writing on my MN blog, and working on my grad school application.  Is this part of my winding road analogy, too?  Maybe I only thought I needed to accomplish those things, where in fact, I was supposed to be relaxed and lazy (and disoriented and anxious, indifferent and unmotivated), and ultimately accomplish only about 20% of what I set out to do with my weekend.

Maybe next week is my week?  I sure could use one of those small epiphanies right about now…

Free will from Nov. 19th

November 23, 2009

Goodness grief, I cannot tell you why I’m writing at 1 o’clock in the morning on a Sunday.  Perhaps it’s the coffee I had at 4pm at Ikea while waiting 45 MINUTES to exchange a broken lamp – that coffee was my means of survival.  Or maybe it’s the fact that it’s a short work week so why not stay up late to get shizz done and suffer through work in a semi-conscious state.  Or perhaps it’s that I finally got a bit of a pesky post on my other blog out of the way and I want to write about something more personal now.

The point is, I should be in bed right now.

Anyway, what I want to do instead is explain this thing I’ve been doing lately with my horoscope where I use my weekly horoscope from Free Will Astrology by Rob Brezsny to ponder and analyze areas of my life.  I’ve been reading this guy’s horoscopes since high school (no lie), and I love that he’s a fellow Cancerian and has witty metaphors and wacky examples, and that he writes abstractly enough that you can pretty much always find a connection to it and not end up feeling frustrated that it’s off the mark.  I consider it good food for thought.  It’s like a weekly dose of philosophy in my otherwise literal and structured life.

This week, Rob tells me I could generate some cosmic luck by doing the following:

  • Begin planning where and when you’ll take a sacred vacation in 2010

Inspiration struck this week when I went to a Norwegian holiday fair in search of some lefse (which I did not find).  I want to go to the motherland – Sweden and Norway!

  • meditate on who among your current allies is most likely to help you expand your world in the next 12 months;

Corin has really been earning some brownie points lately by helping me substantially with several Minneapple-related projects.  She has really helped me expand that world and think bigger about the project.  I also consider my colleague Hopi a great ally, as well as my uke-jam buddy Grace, and my Mpls friends Lisa and Teresa (both entrepreneurs!).  And there’s always Nati who can expand my physical world by putting me up in Spain, and Britters who is always expanding my musical world.  I’m blessed in this department.

  • decide which of your four major goals is the least crucial to pursue;

I hate this one.  I don’t want to not pursue any of my goals, which are:

  1. Expand Minneapple in the Big Apple
  2. Apply to grad school
  3. Kick ass at my job
  4. Apply to jobs in MN

I’m already focusing less on the job search and more on grad school, so I guess that’s the answer.

  • and do something dramatic to take yourself less seriously.

Karaoke on Friday night helped with this (although that’s not too dramatic considering I often do karaoke, and I love singing and sometimes take it a little too seriously).  Hmmm, any other thoughts?

OK, ready for my cosmic luck now!